First Day of My Life

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When I first started dating the Danester, I knew we would break up eventually. We had a time limit on our relationship--an expiration date, if you will. I knew this, I knew it and I still let myself fall head over toes in love with this sweet boy. Honestly, the boy is the best first love a girl could request. He's passionate, yet withdrawn, and intelligent, and the sweetest guy in the world. Strangely, he tends to hide his sweet parts. He relies on the sarcastic comments he spews at people to pretend that he's not a big mush ball, the same way I am. Although he's not nearly as bad.

So there it is. I let it happen. I fell in love with a boy who knows me better than I know myself. I used to be able to pretend I wasn't crying when we talked on the phone, but now he can hear the tears, even if they haven't even fallen yet. It's amazing.

So the boy leaves on his mission on Wednesday. For all of you non-LDS readers, a mission is a two year hiatus from the world for our church where our young men serve the Lord and attempt to spread his gospel. It changes these young men, in a good way.

There you have it folks. The gist of our relationship-unexpectedly passionate and spontaneous. But also comfortable in every good way. Our first meeting was on a Sunday, when we started talking at Tunnel Singing. Then our first "date" was to hike the Y. Then we had a sweet and adorable first kiss under a tree on a bench outside May Hall. oh how I miss him. This is my first "missing" too. I feel a little dead inside.

Love, Sarai

PS:

I am sad

I'm a Little Bit Nostalgic at the Moment....

This is my library. Okay okay, not technically my personal library, but literally the one I have been going to since I was just a wee one....

And it just closed :(

And I'm sure you noticed that on the sign it says, 'new library grand opening', but it won't be the same to me no matter what. See the new library, which is being filled as I type, is this massive glass structure, and it's amazing. It's truly an accomplishment, and I think we should be proud of it. But that doesn't mean it's my library anymore. Now it's someone else's library.

I think I'm just freaked out because I leave for college in a week and a half, and this place I've loved since I was a little kid is no longer a place that I can go. I feel like everything is changing at the same time, and it's just making me all dizzy and anxious. But I'm still excited for the future :) Of course.

Ohhh! Today was the rehearsal for 'Couve Idol' which is a singing competition for high schools in my area, and I got in again this year! Two years ago I got second place, and last year I kinda didn't get very far. It's a charity event where you put money in people's boxes to vote, and tomorrow is the actual event! I'm so excited, but mighty mighty nervous :P

I think these are the songs I'm singing:

Anyways, I hope I do okay tomorrow :) Wish me luck!

Love, Sarai