Butterflies, Roses, and Turtles

Details:

Blazer-Nancy's

Tanktop-thrifted

Leggings-thrifted

Boots-Icing

Necklace-Icing

I have never had a good Valentine's Day in my entire life. I'm no hater of V-day, but I've always been single, making it just a day for candy and hearts. But this time, I had Dane. My wonderful boyfriend. 

I woke up to this text:

"Happy Valentine's Day to my beautiful girlfriend"

My heart melted a little bit.

Then, like the fantastic lady I am, I brought him cupcakes at work. Just a little surprise plate of goodness :)

Later, Dane showed up in my lobby with roses, Turtle Chocolates (I keep telling him I want a Turtle for my birthday), and a sweet little Valentine's card that he made for me in FHE. Most precious card I've ever gotten.

Then we went to Los Hermanos, and had some deliciousness, and free fried ice cream. Then we made out a little bit :)

So basically, everything about my night was wondrous. I have the most wonderful boyfriend in the world.

Also, I'm so sick of people hating on Valentine's Day. I've always been single on V-day, but does that stop me from ingesting chocolate like there's no tomorrow? Oh heck no.

Love, Sarai

PS:

This song will always be the song that makes me think of Dane <3

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The Fear You Won't Fall

Photos by Carson

Details #1
Hat-Costume department at Hudson's Bay
Dress-thrifted
Shoes-Forever Young Shoes

Details #2
Tunic-Bekah
Belt-thrifted
jeggings-Icing
Boots-Alloy
Earrings-gifted

I love these ladies. The blondie, Brittni, is a Southern Belle like no other before. She's classy and outspoken, all at the same time. I simply adore her and her enthusiasm for everything. She's legitimately the first friend I made at BYU. Which kind of makes her amazing :)
And Carson. The fiery and sarcastic redhead that I know and love. She's a citizen of the world, having lived in Mexico, France, Britian. She's bloody brilliant at pictures btw. She does all of mine now :)
These ladies are just fan-freaking-tastic, and Brittni is so nervous about her disney princess auditions tomorrow... poor girl :(

Anyway--
the name of this post...
wow.
okay, all yall know by now that I have a boyfriend. And on Wednesday, we reached the one month mark. Which is astounding for a commitment phobe such as myself.
My problem is, I'm so love with the idea of being in love, that I can't handle it when the real thing comes along. Don't smile and congratulate just yet--I'm not in love. But being in a relationship, of course I can't help but imagine that when that happens, I want to know that he loves me too.
And thus the fear
It's hard for me to give myself to someone in a relationship sort of way. When I told my best guy friend this summer that I had feelings for him, I assumed I had hit the jackpot. He told me he felt the same, and my terrified little heart came out of hiding and hoped beyond hope that maybe there was a wonderful guy right in front of me.
I suppose the celebratory dances my heart did were premature, being that he changed his mind.... awk.
It's all good. We're back to normal.
But now you must understand--It hasn't been an easy road for a hopeless romantic such as myself. I may be scared of relationships, but I never ever stop fantasizing. So now, being in a relationship, it feels so different than I thought it would. How will I know if I fall in love? I hear that it's different for every person
And when I heard this Joshua Radin song, I just couldn't help but get all scared. I told Nancy I should get out of this before something crazy happened. She talked me off the ledge like a good best friend ;)

Love (not romantically), Sarai